I love Mark Salling(Puck, from Glee, just for the record~)....

If only for this, from his twitter.

"Hey will someone please make a puck artie hookup video? Puck + Artie = party!!!"

Plus, he's from Dallas~! Yay!

Aww, shit.

I'm smitten again. ♥

Roleplay Love Meme

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Sorry for the spam.

What is it about life?

Why is it that - last night, of all nights, I felt the worst I've felt in a while. I mean sobbing into my pillow because I couldn't sleep, because I've alienated myself from friends and the people that love me, because I'm not able to have the confidence even to pretend like I'm a badass -- It was a moment of weakness, one I dislike and will attempt not to repeat.

But then - things happened. I met a girl I only vaguely knew of. We were in choir together, I think, and she and I were never once close. Talking now, I wonder why we never were. We have a lot in common -- singing, of course. Love of musical theater. Religious views and political leanings. We've been texting back and forth. She's cute. ♥ I like her.

I haven't flirted with anyone in ages, but yeah. I totally flirted with her. I smiled and grinned and told her she was gorgeous, shamelessly.

It was fun.

And somehow, I feel like I'm on top of the world.

I is Captain James T. Kirk of the USS Enterprise, bitches.



Also, I want to marry Amber Riley.

The end.

Things I would love to see in Glee:

Mercedes singing anything from The Color Purple. Especially "I'm Here".

Will and Emma singing Sunrise from In The Heights, possibly with the roles reversed -- him teaching her Spanish rather than the other way around, of course.

Kurt singing more Defying Gravity. Or anything from Wicked. His voice is...absolutely lovely. And ridiculously fitting for his character. I adore him. <3

Artie singing Beatles. The actor sang Lean On Me for his audition, and sang it marvelously.

Sorry I'm talking about this show so much. Going a few weeks without is really weird. ;_;

Fuckleberry Quinn.

Best. Foursome. Name. Ever.

(Finn/Puck/Rachel/Quinn, of course. 8D)

EDIT: Five Times Someone Let Kurt Down... --- great fic. Really, really, really good. ♥ NC-17.

Getting over irrational fears involving a community that has no need for me to be afraid? = Awesome.

Gaining three, beautiful, new muses in the process? = Also awesome.

New layout, new profile? = Awesome.

Knowing you're putting off the inevitable and that your Kirk muse is slowly starting to fade away due to "Ohmigodshinynewfandom" syndrome? = Not awesome.

Not at all.

Thankfully, Star Trek comes out on DVD November 17th -- here's hoping my Kirk comes back to me by then?

( Glee Spoilers! )

My whole RP thing has still been bothering me. I've been taking a little while off, which is why I've been slow in tagging, and ...meh.

Hopefully I should be back into sorts soon. :\ Pretty sure this is just a temporary deal. I hope.

Big Bang is coming up. Been hard at work on that. Some issues with e-mail meant my fanmix draft didn't go in, and I'm a little upset with that. Gah. I don't check my friends' list every day, and it's difficult to keep track of it. :\ Mehhh. Whatever.

We got new floors last week. \o/

I work tomorrow. orz.

Gleeeeeeeeeeeee. I need you in my life. D: Why must I have to wait two weeks.

( Roleplaying Rant )

So, I just got over the swine flu. H1N1, if we wanna be politically correct. But that sucked.

I'm also very close to finishing the third season of Heroes. Slowly starting to catch up! Yayyyy!

And this last episode of Glee made me entirely happy. ♥

School has been very ...meh. :\ Missing a week got me really behind. I'm not really happy with this. And work has cut my hours as well for calling in sick. It makes sense, but it's also a bit disheartening when I have so many bills and problems that keep happening.

As far as everything else is concerned, I've simply been being addicted to facebook games and idly throwing around the idea of dark fantasy Star Trek in my brain. I have this gorgeous image of a Voodoo Priestess Uhura that just sounds absolutely lovely. And Kirk a vampire, and and and Bones a vampire, and there's just an awful lot to it that I can't describe. But it's a very addicting idea. ♥

Sometimes, it'd be great not to feel anything.

GLEEE.

( Spoilers for 1x05! )

I got my Star Trek costume in the mail. :3 Yay.

I am totally digging on Glee.

( Spoilers for 1x04 ahoy! )

This is one of the most phenomenal fics I've ever read. I really oughta put up a rec post at some point, but I ...really have to pimp this one out hardcore.

It's Sulu/Chekov, mainly, with a background smattering of pairings that aren't all that terribly important to the central storyline. It's also heartwrenchingly sad, but it ends happily.

SHOULD READ IT, GUYS. YOU REALLY REALLY SHOULD. The characters are so spot on it hurts, and it does hurt. God it hurts.

But the end is worth it I think.

\o/

startrekbigbang claims are up now! :D

I'm doing both art and a mix. I've claimed #40 - Lie Back and Think of Starfleet, which is Kirk/Sulu for art, an then #30 -- a splendiforous sounding Kirk/McCoy fic that I cannot recall the title of at the moment.

SHOULD BE FUN! <3

SOSO SO.

I've been watching Heroes. :) I'm on episode 20 now of the first season.

I think Hiro/Ando/Hiro is my OTP. Of all OTPs. Just gotta throw that out there.

♥

Tonight's a little lonely.

Pride is next week. I'm going with Flo.

It's been a full complete year. It's again, on September the 20th. Sadly, I'm kind of reminded of times in a Crowne Plaza hotel and candles and...

Yeah, I'm over it. But that doesn't mean I don't miss the memories. I stopped by a crepe shop on Friday, and I nearly cried because Mr. Paul was so sweet. Telling me to be careful with my heart, not to give it to those who will break it. It took all my willpower to walk past the strawberry mochi, to keep from lingering there. Sometimes, I just...I don't even know. I keep wondering what to do next. If I'm supposed to do anything. I've been single for six months or so now, more than that, and that's as long as we were together. It doesn't ache anymore, and I don't cry about it any longer, and...I've given up hope on things repairing past the point of friendship. I still consider her my friend, no matter how self-destructive I feel at times -- not completely estranging her from my life like I had hoped I would be able to.

But...life. Life is ....well, slow. Slow and mundane.

I have wonderful friends. Friends that I can spoil with affections, but -- maybe there's something that I'm missing. I -- as silly as it sounds, I miss having someone that I can roleplay with, someone that I have amazing chemistry with. Like I did with Ed, and Shroud, and Kyrie. Becca, too. My head just feels stuck in this odd little rut, and it bothers me not having someone to inspire everything. I'm envious of the friendships that other roleplayers seem to have with one another, and I fear I'm losing my confidence by being inactive and not talking to anyone, hardly.

I love you guys, but damn, my confidence right now is at a pretty all-time low. I'm gaining some weight due to my asthma medication, and I'm already fat and ugly enough as it is. I'm losing friends left and right, but gaining ones too. I just miss...everything my life used to be. Not with Kyrie. But before that, when I had a whole bunch of friends I implicitly trusted and came home to every night. I feel like I'm losing that support, that the support I have now is supposed to come from within myself, but I feel listless and uninspired. I want to lose the weight I'm gaining, and I want to be able to exercise, but I can never bring myself to do so.

...I don't know what this entire entry was even about. TL;DR -- ANGST ANGST WAHHHH.

Maybe next week I'll have pictures from Pride and Galveston, and it will be marvelous. Or ...something...

THE CITY

There's a city on the edge of eternity, pulling and calling out to you from behind your eyes. It sucks you in like a void, and suddenly you're there, but where is there? The world is different from where you came from, but you know it so well. You've been here forever, for your entire life. Your memories sync up, and there is no other world, no other home, just this place, these people, this life. But the world is unstable, twisting and turning, and it wont be long until the world you know is gone, replaced entirely. Now this is your home, your life, everything you remember. You've made friends, enemies, partnerships, and they always remain the same, even if the world you know has changed a thousand times over without your knowledge. The worlds you know, the lives you lead, they're all an illusion, created by the anomaly of the City on the Edge.

THE GAME

Edge of Eternity is a Panfandom, Multi-AU RP inspired slightly by the premise of Blackadder. The game consists of a base world, the City on the Edge, decrepit and abandoned. The world is unstable, though, and reality is always shifting. This is a game of multi-AUs, the universe shifting every 6 weeks or so into a new alternate universe. The characters remain the same, the relationships that they have made remain the same, but their histories and lives are revised by time. It is as if they never left their home, whatever AU they are currently living in, until the time when the universe fades back into its original form. Then everyone remembers everything, and the consequences that come with it. Taken Characters ● Reservations ● Wishlist Application GAMEPLAY BEGINS SEPTEMBER 15TH

I want more people. Seriously. D: This looks so awesomely promising.